Hey Kate!

Every morning, I wake and when I don't feel or see you next to me, I play Hey Kate and have a cigarette. It isn't much, but the smell and the sounds are you and I can feel your arms wrap around me like the smoke, so soft and gentle, so close.
This is one of the hardest winters I have ever faced, but your smile and laughter when we are together makes every little bit away from you so worth it. Some might say that I'm holding onto nothing, but I think I'm holding onto everything.

Embarrassed...

Taking English so late like this... Everyone usually takes it their first year here... Just makes me feel stupid.

But my favorite boys will be here tomorrow to hold and cuddle and have so much fun with <3

School Tomorrow..

Today words do not want to come out of my mouth. They have been too angry throughout the day. So I want to apologize. I didn't mean to make anyone upset or anything, I just am having a hard time with my feelings. This is the first time that I am going back to Chester and didn't really want to, only because it feels I can do better here, with my Dan sandwich.

Do they have lightning dragons in New Hampshire? Will I be able to taste shooting stars in the night air without out you? I hope for neither, or I hope for a way to fold you up in my pocket and take you there with me into the mountains. Maybe we can strip down and jump into a cool stream with no one looking, and stare at the moon in the reflection of the water. We can make song lyrics for ourselves, instead of clinging to a melody just not quite right.
I'll miss you, but tonight is ours to do anything in the world.

hfd;gkhfd;ihg oe

i dont think you should blog when you are feeling down or anything like that, but the feeling of neglect keeps pulsing through me and i know that isnt the case at all. i cant help feeling it. i can just blame it on the weather today and call it quits i guess. it's cold, i'm tired. there's two excuses. do you need anymore?
maybe ill just go to bed. not say anything and sleep the morning away.